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LJI 10 Break Week: Grief Bacon (A Poem)

This is one of my entries for the LJ Idol Season 10 (therealljidol) Break Week, the first of four poems. This one tackles the topic, "Kummerspeck."




Grief Bacon
(a contemplation of the word "Kummerspeck")

I wrap my grief in bacon, gooey
and impermeable. Dusted with almond flour,
sugar and salt. What choice
did I have, losing you so close
to Thanksgiving? We ate
your memory in a flaky crust.
Cider turned to vinegar in our mouths.

My siblings, Dad, your partner's family
gathered for a meal, memorial. Poured gravy
over the things we could not say. On
Thanksgiving, you do not
assign blame (except perhaps
under your breath, secreted
in the kitchen, shoving a
tasteless morsel into your mouth,
to keep the words down). If only

that had ended it. But a year
of gnoshing and teeth-gnashing
would follow. A sour residue
of your sudden passing, Mom.
Nothing I ate could fill
the hole you left behind. And now

a smidge past the anniversary, I
emerge from the trough. Once caked
with salt, I feel my encasement
crack. Leaving behind me
a path strewn with crumbs.

- January 1, 2017

Comments

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rayaso
Jan. 1st, 2017 07:42 pm (UTC)
Assuming this was about a real event, I'm sorry for the loss of your mother. I enjoyed this poem very much, especially the opening stanza. Great job!
alycewilson
Jan. 1st, 2017 11:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Yes, I did lose my mother shortly before Thanksgiving last year. I also put on 15 pounds of grief (but recently lost 7 of it). It's a process, but getting easier (both getting over grief and regaining fitness).
fannishliss
Jan. 1st, 2017 09:13 pm (UTC)
Holidays are so different after our loved ones are lost. It can be really hard and you've done a great job capturing that.
alycewilson
Jan. 1st, 2017 10:59 pm (UTC)
They are and thank you! This year was better than last. We are finding new traditions together.
roina_arwen
Jan. 2nd, 2017 04:45 pm (UTC)
"We ate your memory in a flaky crust" - lovely imagery with just a hint of cannibalism!
alycewilson
Jan. 2nd, 2017 05:17 pm (UTC)
LOL! I hadn't thought about it like that, but grief is sort of like that. It consumes you from within, and you metabolize your memories.
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